Every time I can't seem to get you off my mind, I write a letter. Writing those letters can be such a bittersweet moment. Bitter because I have to dig into some pretty still dark area's of my heart to talk to you. Area's that are full of pain and regret. Sweet because I love thinking about all of the wonderful moments we shared that brought us to where we are. I just wish the ending was different.
Physical pain doesn't seem to stop me dead in my tracks quite as often as emotional pain from losing a best friend. Do you think anyone else understands? I know some who will and others who won't. None of that matters because even then, we all have different levels or weight of grief. I feel mine is so much heavier than I can sometimes handle.
That's where the sweet memories help me a lot. Your face can make me smile a million times more than it will make me cry. Sure, I'll continue to die inside each time after I've smiled looking into your loyal brown eyes, but I'll also remember that you're never too far gone. You're just a breath taking dream away.
I miss you so much, Ally. I love you more than words can express. I love you more than the distance to the moon and back. I love you always and forever, and that's a long time.