Dear Ally, Fall is almost here.
Do you know that I based my Fall Mason Jar lineup on you? The reds and oranges like your fur. The browns remind me of the different highlights in your eyes. The creamy white of your senior sugar snout. Everything. Every little thing was all hand chosen and handmade with you in mind. I can't spend Fall with you because you're gone... but I can bring you into Fall with me.
It's about trying to hold onto you as much as I can. It's about that feeling I get when I close my eyes in the morning on the patio, drinking coffee, and getting ready for the day. It's just about feeling you as much as I can all around me and in the air, because I miss you so much.
Fall is a few weeks away and that means, the anniversary of the day you left is lingering closer... and it's so hard Ally. It's miserable knowing that I'll never be able to escape this emptiness inside of me. I loved you more than the air filling my lungs. You were my heart and soul and my best friend.
It's been hard staying focused without you. It's been hard ever since you left. Soon, I'll have to relive that all over again. October 25th 2017 was the day my heart sank to the bottom of the ocean of tears that God knows I cried for you. It was the day my Faith was also restored in religion because I couldn't imagine a world without you or that we would never see each other again. It was the day I didn't just lose a dog, but the best friend I could have ever hoped for.
I know you are somewhere out there Ally. I know because I can feel you in the wind, smell you in the air, see you in every shape of a cloud or shadow that casts across the path when my eyes wander. And it's those moments where I can feel you that I hold onto the most.
I love you Ally. To the moon and back. Always and forever.